I remember thinking about what it would be like when I grew up all the time when I was little. I used to dream about the kind of life I'd have, all the things I would do, and it was so exciting to me. But I never really believed it would happen. It's one of those things that sneaked up on me, and caught me completely unawares. I remember the first time I realized that I was getting old. I learned the random fact that Jessica Simpson is only a few years older than me, and it completely bowled me over. At the time she was married to Nick, and had that show on t.v. It seemed quite obvious that the whole world thought of her as a "woman". I never watched that show, but I remember thinking, she's only a few years older than me, and look how much she's done with her life! NOT that I look up to Jessica Simpson as a role model for my life, nor do I want what she has, but she's out there, doing things in the world. I still felt like a little girl, and there she is, making music, on t.v. for all the world to see, and yet she was only a few years older. That was my first wake up call that life was passing me by and I hadn't done much yet to appreciate it. Yesterday came another slap in the face. I was listening to the radio and that Miley Cyrus song came on, "It's The Climb"... a nice little song. I was listening to it, and all of a sudden it occurred to me that this is what people will sing, Karaoke style, in five, ten years, and the audience will laugh and look at each other and say, "Oh man, remember when Hannah Montana was so hot, and she was all the rage?" (or however kids will talk at that time) And she's like twelve!!! (I have not researched this information) Why aren't they singing Backstreet Boys anymore? What happened to my youth?
Now now, I realize that I am still quite young, I'm not signing myself into any nursing homes yet, and again, I don't want what any other life than the one I have, but I had to stop for a minute and think. Am I really enjoying my life, or am I just "living" it? Because it's going fast.