Wednesday, November 17, 2004


ha ha ha. well. i was thinking. strange i know but i was. and i thought about myself as like that game of battleship. and i was thinking about how maybe it applied to the way i react to guys. so maybe it's like we're playing against each other, me and whoever he is, and i have my ships all carefully arranged to protect what is in the center, cheesishly and clicheishly my heart. yeah silly and it's weird to say but that's the analogy. so i have all my little ships aligned to protect it and i am trying to sink his dumb random ships which have no particular importance or meaning before he sinks mine, which does. (this is my analogy it can be however i want) so in battleship the game you are supposed to place your ships and then leave them there, but in my game i move them each time to keep him on his toes, but of course his are glued down with super glue and then duck taped. so i move my ships around and the game goes on and on, and the person i am playing against changes every now and then as people get frustrated and leave, or take potty breaks, or take a nap or whatever. and sometimes i don't play against anyone and i just kind of sit and watch my ships floating around and i am so proud of them for being so brave and smart and being so good at protecting me. and sometimes i watch my little ships and wish i could throw them out the window and drown them in the real sea. and sometimes i stare at them and wonder what will happen if they are never destroyed and they protect me forever and ever and... yikes. and then i realized that probably what will happen is someday someone will come along who wants to try and play, and instead of giving me the chance to move my ships after each turn he will just pick up my board, turn it around, take my little ships out and put them in his pocket. and that's not fair. cuz now i have no defenses, and not only that but he knows all my tricks, and he's in charge of them. in short, he owns me. yikes. but, then he puts my side of the game back down and says hey i won lets go play monopoly. yep. i feel like it's going to be about that way.

Monday, November 8, 2004

Hidalgo, Seabiscuit, and etc.

I tried to find that quote from Hidalgo but alas, i failed. sorry. i will try again another time i am sure. and i will succeed. we talked about failure in my educational psychology class today, interesting stuff. i had spaghetti-os for dinner tonight. hm hm good. i have a song stuck in my head. it is simple plan's "i'd do anything" and i am pretty excited about it. but. i was reading jimmy eat world lyrics online today, because i am researching the band so when i say whether or not i like them it is based on a real understanding and not just ignorance. i have pretty much decided that if i ever understood what they were referring to in their music i might like them, but it seems to be way over my head or something because i just don't get it, and it's really important to me to relate to the music i am listening to. but there was one song that caught my attention and amused me. the lyrics are as follows:

I don't want to be up on a Friday night,
but I don't want to be there up on a Saturday night.
I don't want to be up on a Friday night,
but I don't want to be there up on a Saturday night.
I don't want to be up on a Friday night,
I don't want to be there.
When It's over when I'm starving, could it be yanked out of your hand.
Yep I'm the guy, all that you've seen and heard.
What about yourself now?
You're just the girl next door.
So now you're waiting to find out that it's something.
Wishing, to get your face up anyway.
Give it up dish it out now take it back now lift it up, turn it back now one more.
When it's over when I'm starving.
Take your hand to rest with your head.
Yep I'm the guy, all that you've done and seen.
Laying on the floor at 6:30 and you're here.
Say you want it so, so.
Just say it right you want me.

so i really have no idea what the song is supposed to be about, but i like to adapt music to fit me, and this one is highly entertaining taken that way. how it applies to my life that is. well it doesn't really apply, but you tweak and twist it and then it does. so get excited. i am so excited for christmas. we started practicing the music for christmas time to get ready and it's gonna be awesome. wicked awesome. no i am not from boston, but thanks for asking. alright. geography for reals now. nicole - get back to work!

Sunday, November 7, 2004


"i was watching him watch other people watch you while he was watching you." so the word "watch" gets really exciting when you write it so many times. and if you read it too many times it kind of looks like it might have a different meaning. unfortunately, it was blank and nothing was to be gleaned. oh well. so it is kind of like that line in the song how does it go? "i saw you say that you say that you saw... i saw you" yeah. old school. alright. back to snuggling. sarah - we miss you at times like this.

p.s. sorry nicole this one was short. i'll write a better one for you another day. and thanks for letting me know i was an hour early. that could have been embarrassing.