Today started off like any other day, waking up to the noiseless commotion of Devin slipping out at 4:30 to go work out. Then my alarm at 5:00, snooze, snooze, snooze, even though I am awake and have been since Devin left. I like to lie there in the dark, soaking up the last few peaceful moments of my day before it all gets so crowded and noisy and my head fills up with a million thoughts pulling me to do a million things and then the guilt that rides me all day long and keeps me up too late at night of only accomplishing four of them. 5:30 am and I know my time is up, the luxury of rest has passed and so I rise. Dress myself and make last minute preparations for my four high school students to come. Unlock the door, turn on the porch light; it is still so dark outside. Now the rush and flurry of life begins. Students come, students go, breakfast, shoes, backpacks, out the door. Then to the ymca where I will drop the girls off to play and I will work out for two hours, lifti