Wednesday, November 9, 2005

everything at once

how can the small flowers grow if the wild winds blow and the cold snow moves all around? where will the frail birds fly if their homes on high have been torn down, to the ground? lift the wings that carry me away from here and fill the sail that breaks the line to home. when i'm miles and miles apart from you - i'm beside you when i think of you. how can the tree stand tall if the rain won't fall to wash its branches down? how can the heart survive, can it stay alive - if it's loves denied for long? lift the wings that carry me away from here and fill the sail that breaks the line to home when i'm miles and miles apart from you, i'm beside you when i think of you. and i'm with you as i dream of you. and this song will bring me near to you.

hey everyone. i considered walking to canada today. but i didn't. thought about it though. for about five minutes, till the next huge gust of wind came along and blew the idea straight out of my mind. that and i called kristy and she said come home. so i said, ok fine. but it's been bad. i've been so annoyed at myself. i have forgotten every important thing i was supposed to do this week. every responsibility i had to myself, to my group members, to my boss, to my roommates, everyone. i don't think there was a person this week that i did not somehow let down. luckily i had a good email week, so that cheered me up. thanks for writing me! friends. ah, good people. we had a panel tonight for seniors to ask us questions about college, and our experience, and it was quite interesting. we tried to give them the truth without scaring them so much that they don't ever want to go. so it's weird having like all your best friends engaged, or basically engaged... except for the few that are holding strong, thanks guys. but it makes me feel old. and much as i have always wanted to grow old, i feel like i'm too young to already be growing old. hmm, paradox? well it's true. no one ever said what i felt had to make sense did they? cuz if so, i missed out hardcore on that memo. for reals. what else is new. not much. my room hasn't been clean in like a decade and i think i am going slowly insane from that. i've been living on fruit snakes and hot dogs for a while now.
when you're down and troubled and you need some lovin care, and nothing nothing is going right... close your eyes and think of me and soon i will be there to brighten up even your darkest night - you just call out my name and you know wherever i am i'll come running to see you again. winter spring summer or fall, all you have to do is call and i'll be there you've gotta friend. if the sky above you grows dark and full of clouds and that old north wind begins to blow keep your head together and call my name out loud soon you'll hear me knocking at your door. you just call out my name and you know wherever i am i'll come running running yeah yeah to see you again winter spring summer or fall all you have to do is call and i'll be there.
peace out homies.

Sunday, October 9, 2005

fall break - utah

so i am in utah for fall break, as is my custom. it is awesome. i am at mimi's apartment with the best of both worlds - all my muncie peeps AND all my maine peeps. well, ok not all of them, but... the ones that showed up. we went salsa dancing, marc played songs for us on the guitar, we watched wicker park, we played backgammon, (marc beat me twice... dang it) marc made me breakfast this morning, swedish pancakes, amazing, western omelettes, and of course bacon. tomorrow is church, and then i hope to see the odell's, and then hang out with suzie and angie... and then monday i get to see the cannons and melissa and it's been awesome so far. oh we had a party at angie's house too. for all the muncie people. except jon ridge, he had a date. we went over to the roush's, but sister roush is in new york city, so we hung out with the kids for a while and bethie willian who is babysitting and watching the house while tiffany is gone. now marc is going to download the pictures and the movie we recorded of him singing on the guitar onto mimi's computer. it's going to be awesome. more later. love ya'll! amy

Wednesday, August 10, 2005


wow now maine is over too, and school starts again in like a week and a half. where does life go? so maine was awesome. i can't say it enough, and since it's my standard response when people ask me how it was, i say it alot. it was absolutely amazing. i mean, the place is perfect. it is the most beautiful all around nature outdid herself place. the ocean, the mountains, the weather, the funny people... everything. work was work, but for the most part enjoyable. we worked with some nutty coworkers, but i wish them all the best of luck in their future lives. ( i pray for matt and mike... they need help.) i mowed an old woman's lawn, that was probably my hardest day of work - they had let the grass grow to almost two feet tall, and they gave me some jank mower to use, and it was up this huge hill. i have never mowed up a hill before. it was a million degrees outside and i was so covered in grass clippings by the end of the day that my skin on my hands and arms was literally stained green and i looked like the jolly green giant. it was awesome, the lady felt so bad that it was such a hard job that she gave me crab meat, which i guess is a real nice gesture. i never got to eat it though, we forgot about it and it sat in the fridge for too long. i saw five deer, one otter, but no puffins or moose(s?). i never ate lobster, the only time i went in a position to get lobster i ate corn on the cob instead. you can take the girl out of indiana, but you can't take the indiana out of the girl. i made so many friends ( in no special order): melissa, alexa, carrie, rizzo (her real name is liz, but she is a ranger, and one day i got excited and called her riz... so i decided to call her riz which sometimes became rizzo, which then led to sometimes rizzo and the sunshine gang. don't ask if you know me, you'll know...), and toby and chris and the blue hill boys, marc, james and spencer. it was an awesome summer. landon came out to visit, so did my mom three times, my dad once, and my brother once, and nick empey came to see nicole, and us too a little bit... oh and jacob hotness jackson came too. my parents are moving to michigan here in about a month or so, and that will be strange. pete just bought a house down in indianapolis, hannah ellis is on her honey moon, sarah jackson is getting married in the fall, and my friends are growing up all around me, but i guess arguments could be made that i am growing up too. i guess we can't stop it from happening. this is my last year at school, i only have a semester left after this one, and then my mom and i have been talking and thinking about me moving out to utah to live with mimi for a year maybe longer. we'll see. my girls, stacy, kristy and jackie it will be so strange to have our last year together! kristy and stacy are graduating, and since i will only need a six month lease... it's all over for us. let's not think about that yet. nope. my dog is fat. i came home from maine and she is huge. so i take her on walks, we went for an hour long walk today and when we got back she panted out of control for like 30 minutes, i thought maybe i'd killed her. whoops. she seems fine now though. the alumni soccer game is tomorrow, it will be my last one, and my final goodbye to murray. it will be hard to say a last goodbye to that old bag. oh well. life moves on, i've learned.

Saturday, May 7, 2005


oh man. what to say? it's over. finally, and at the same time, where did it go? endings are bittersweet. so i am supposed to be packing for maine. but i decided to take a break. i have had an awesome last few weeks of school, i think i've had three bde's... best days ever. let's see. nauvoo was one of course, and then RIVERDANCE. that was awesome, i started off that day with breakfast with my hannah ellis, my heather wible, and a guest appearance by new friend josh. (hi josh.) so that was wonderful, and then i went to riverdance... WONDERFUL. amazing. incredible. fantastic.

i had to start a new paragraph. thinking about riverdance was getting too intense... so the other bde was yesterday, and alisha and i have been planning it for a long time. we had disclaimers to sign, and like ten appendixes, and it turned out pretty great i'd say. we colored pictures, and we ate hot dogs, and we "flew" a kite, and we looked at the river, and we made the requisite walmart run... we finished it off watching hidalgo, which is, in my opinion - so take it as you will, an awesome movie. i love it.

but... i guess i have to get back to packing now. maine is going to be... quite the experience i think.

get ready.

Like. Now.

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

rah rah roo

hmm. i am so sleepy. block three is basically done. i have some last minute detail work to do, and then that's it. eas (earth and atmospheric science) is done tomorrow when i take my exam... and i have my last spanish class... it's getting there. i can't wait for this semester to end and i can go to maine. i will miss everyone, and it's going to be a weird summer away from family and friends for my birthday, and to not see anyone really... but i can't wait to see maine. i've never been, and i hear it's amazing. my lil meems came up to visit, she's been here a few days... it's been so nice to have her here. she drove me all over, we had a nice adventure with my laundry, she did two loads for me while i was at class (isn't she the sweetest?) but my dryer is broken, so i had two loads of wet laundry when i came home. so, i found some friends and took my wet laundry to their houses. it was... awesome. then today we called our landlord people to tell them about the broken dryer and they send someone over and he can't figure it out so i go to class and it's my last block three class EVER and then i am getting out of my friends car who had given me a ride home and i see kyle, kelly's boyfriend getting out of a truck, but the missionaries live across the street from me and so i'm like hey you here to get the elders? and he was like no, i have to fix a dryer. and i started shouting in the middle of the street, "my dryer? you fixing my dryer?" and he was like "i don't know, are you number 5?" and i was like, still in the middle of the street, still shouting, like - "my dryer! my dryer!" and so he fixed it. amazing. i made an awesome cd, it's called "black pirate jack" and the theme is "boys of the summer" by the ataris. i've been listening to it for like four straight days now. maybe five. so... let's hear it for well deserved naps that are precursers to more late late nights. but... they are nearing an end! so... get excited about that. peace out everyone, and stay stress free.

Tuesday, April 12, 2005


oh beautiful rain
oh glorious dark skies
oh heavenly mud

what a happy day.

i found my keys.

thank you to everyone who prayed for me, i know there were a lot of you, and thanks so much for keeping me cheerful... it was hard at times, i know.

but i found them... i think i will have an nervous compulsion to be constantly checking that i have them now, and i will probably be remembered as that girl who had a strange attachment to her keys, sentimental almost. whatever it was, something just wasn't quite... right.

but at least i have them. i love them.

again, thank you.

have a beautiful cold rainy day. i know i am. -amy

Thursday, March 24, 2005


this is my third entry in like ten minutes. i realize. thank you. i am extremely bored, and tired... and can't take a nap. so here is what i do. alisha and i are performing in a talent show this weekend. yes we are. our talent you want to know? eating bacon. thus, this poem felt appropriate.

Into the Frying Pan
by Alisha Heavilon

Dancing ribbons of bacon jump into the skillet,
sizzling with excitement
on the hot metal.
The sinuous edges
curl and wriggle in the heat,
cavorting to the tune the grease sings
as it tosses tiny droplets of itself
in the air like party favors.

It comes dressed in a suit striped red and white,
but the fat exchanges its opacity
for something a little more translucent
and off-the-shoulder.

Aromatic fingers reach to caress
all surroundings and leave
an evocative reminder that lasts
the rest of the day.

Crispy, crunchy, brittle bacon.
Merry Christmas, little taste buds.

That's some kind of beautiful.

and i say: hip hip hooray, let's hear it for tasty.


well. we had our first soccer game last night, and it was fun. it was cold, and we totally outplayed the other team (we're not sure, but we think the final score was five to zero). but it was still fun. i look forward to next week's game. so, we just got back from spring break this week and it has been hard to come back to the not so hot weather, and school, and having to get up early and all that jazz. how was spring break you want to know? wonderful. it was great. let's see. we drove all night and got to mobile alabama around seven thirty in the morning, which was six thirty in the morning their time. yeah. so we had nothing to do, and could not board our boat until one thirty, and then it left at four thirty. so... we had a while to wait. we explored mobile for a while, drove around and tried to find a place to eat. then we went to dennys and had breakfast, made some friends, charged jackie's cell phone in their outlet, and then we drove to a parking lot at a la quinta hotel and took a nap, in the car... it was pretty much the most uncomfortable nap i have ever taken in my life... but it was a "solid" two hour sleep and that was key. so we slept for a while and then when we woke up we went to barnes and noble and hung out there for a while, i bought three books and we charged jackie's phone again, this time the outlet we found was, incidentally, in the "men's interest" section of the magazines, and it was kind of awkward for four girls to be sitting back there hanging out, these guys would come over to look at the magazines and see us and get embarrassed that they were "caught" and would kind of meander off hoping we hadn't noticed where their original destination had been. so then we got on our boat, and we explored the boat. it had twelve floors, and was simply awesome. our room was much larger than expected, so we were pleasantly surprised by that. the first day was kind of windy on the boat, so we were worried about the weather, but it was awesome. we went to dinner that first night and almost cried, the food was so good, and we could eat as much as we wanted, and we had the best waiter in the place. our little corner where he served was always the last group to leave, there were like four tables especially and we would just hang out with our waiter, and he would pull tricks on us, and dance sometimes, and chat with us... his name was imade and he was from indonesia. we loved him. he loved us, our table especially. the food like i said was so good in the dining area, and it was nice, and there was also all you can eat anytime pizza buffet, which i partook of every day. there were two pools, both salt water, one with a humongous slide. it was crazy. we did that on the last day, but the water was soooo cold in the pool. we made friends, aka lots of guys were hitting on them the whole time, and we had a good time with that. i did karaoke i think five times and made lots of friends in the karaoke lounge area. i guess i have to tell the story of when i got bit. you might be wondering now, where did amy go again? what kind of animals were habitating this area, that she might have gotten bit by? could it have been poisonous? well... simply put. it was an animal of the homo sapiens variety. meaning, a drunk frat boy. yes, he was nibbling on my shoulder. ok there is more to the story, but it is long and boring i guess so that's the best part. he was biting me. we spent two days in mexico, one day at playa del carmen and one day at cozumel, both beautiful beaches, although we liked playa better. we were out in the sun every day for peak tanning hours, we were usually out from nine a.m. to about five p.m. or so, and that's kind of bad news when it's the hot mexican sun beating down on you... aka we got burnt. bad. my eyes were basically swollen shut the morning we had to leave. yes. the only part of me that got burnt was my shoulders and my eyelids. my eyelids hurt for days. and then they peeled. have you ever seen someone's eyelids peel before? yikes. people who saw me kept freaking out. do you know your eyelids are peeling? gross. stacy poor girl got burnt up bad. she got second degree burns, and had a fever from it. she got sent to the infirmary on the boat, and has had to go to the medical center on campus here too. jackie and kristy got some burns as well, but seem to be pulling through all right. so, note to ourselves if we ever go again, don't fall asleep in the hot mexican sun because if you do it will continue to shine on you, regardless of whether or not you continued applying the sunscreen. it was so fun though. the water was warm and the waves were huge, and there were no pesky jellyfish to worry about. it was brilliant. except for the eyelids swelling, but... that happened on the way home, so who cares. i can't think of anything else right now, and this is probably long enough as it is. so... let me know how your spring breaks went!

Sunday, January 23, 2005

wild world

Oh, baby, baby it's a wild world
It's hard to get by just upon a smile

well last night was definitely interesting. i went out with nicole burke and we hung out at barnes and noble in the children's section reading childrens books for three hours and then we went to get ice cream. one of the better ways i've ever spent a friday night. at the ice cream place we sat there and talked for another three hours. we were the only people in the place for probably two and a half of those hours, and the man who owns the place just kind of went about his business, casually listening to us talk. when it got time for the place to close, he was mopping up and turning off the lights so we started gathering up our things, and he decided it was his time to talk. now the conversation we had been having had been mostly about me, and whether or not the phrase "you're a playa who don't play." as someone once said about me, is true. (they are both of the opinion that it is...) anyway. the ice cream man decided that he was going to take a break from mopping and tell us about his wife, and this girl that works for him whose boyfriend broke up with her and all that drama and how i was young and there were millions of men out there and i shouldn't worry about any of it anyway. it was perhaps one of the most entertaining and interesting advice i've ever been given, especially since most of it had absolutely nothing to do really with what we were talking about. his final advice to me was this "just dump the guy you're with, he's not worth your time. then find someone who is the exact opposite and start dating him! if he's a brown haired guy, find a redhead." i laughed, and we left. it felt like some sort of really cheesy chick flick. but it was fun to be living in a movie moment. i wish life had more of those sometimes. or maybe less. anyway. good night everyone.

Monday, January 3, 2005

i can spell purple backwards

oh me oh my. there is way too much to say about this Christmas break, so maybe i should just give highlights.

-jeff butler to visit for a few days in muncie... always a good time.
-the johns aka all my new friends named john, and talking to old friends named john...
-Christmas of course
-having at least one superfluous non family member person hanging out at our house at all times, all day long, every day of break. that's probably my favorite part about being home, there are people at my house all the time. literally.
-New Years Eve
-Dad's birthday, which most people celebrate as New Years. The huge party that ensues. In which everyone we know comes to our house, and we karaoke.
-Driving to Utah in the middle of the night
-Driving through Nebraska... yes it takes about half the trip from Indiana to Utah to get through Nebraska, and yes I did it myself. wahoo.
-Getting to Utah in the middle of the night, stumbling around my sister's place, falling asleep on the couch, waking up to a bird, cat, dog, hedgehog, hamsters, and i'm not sure what else is crawling around over here.
-Jeff Butler time IN UTAH.
-hanging out with friends, new friends, old friends, good friends, lovely.
-driving to airport to pick mimi up and having the car break down in the lot.
-finding a friend (cute cute cute) named eric to jump the car, then to have him jump it again when it dies on our way out of the lot.
-trying to get back to provo, and having the car die again in rose parks salt lake city! (awesome exciting) and finding a mexican repair garage and chillin there until we see
-Chubby and Gordo's Mexican Restaurant and deciding that it was a must.
-and that's where we're at right now.
-oh also. probably having my sternum broke in the car accident i had